What if I died tomorrow? Oh and some new FREE Textures for you!

What would these people do? I mean really. I swear there is not even one thing that can happen within my household that doesn't require my assistance to happen. I need a break, a vacation, even a trip to the store ALONE would be good at this point. Between the kid, the boyfriend, the Marven (my boss), the cats, the dogs, the goldfish and the caterpillar...I am pooped, fried, wiped out.
I don't want to get up at 6am and argue with my 6 year old about why it's a bad idea to wear jeans to school when it's 100 plus degrees outside; I don't care about the dishes today; don't want to make a special trip to the the store for treaty weaties (cat treats) only to be woke up 3 times during the middle of the night to one of my 6 cats standing over me insisting that they need the treats right now. If the dogs bark one more time at the train going by, that goes by several times a day since they were born...I know I will scream. If I have to haul one more 5 gallon jug of water up my stairs so I can clean the fish tanks (3 tanks) I know I will fall over, I don't care if the tank hasn't cycled yet. Amazing how goldfish survive just fine in muddy icky water from ponds and other gross places but if I am late even an hour of giving mine a few gallons of fresh water they all start freaking out and swimming crazy like the water is just killing them because they have been in it for 24 hours.  And why do my fish act like they are starving every time I look at them, I feed them...really.
I don't know why my kid takes off each shoe in a different room or why she can't remember which rooms each was taken off in. If I trip over one more toy, bad things will happen. Someday soon, I am hoping to actually be able to open my daughters bedroom door...all the way, maybe after she cleans it which should be happening any day now since I told her to do it like a month ago and every day since.
I don't care what the bank balance is, I don't want to go to the pharmacy and stand in line for an hour, I don't want to shop, cook dinner or do the laundry.

I just want one whole entire day to do nothing at all or something I enjoy that requires me to do nothing at all. LOL I want to take pictures of pretty things without telling my dogs to get out of the way like twenty times, or without hearing my kid say, "I'm ready, 20 times when the camera is not even pointing in her direction. I want a tripod that actually works. I want to get lost in processing photographs. Who has time to do this stuff? I have to fight for every single minute I get on this computer and I wouldn't know how to process a photograph without being interrupted at least 3 or four times. It takes me forever to post anything anymore. I just don't know how Rita (Coffeeshop Blog) does it, she makes it all look so easy. LOL
And to make a wonderful day even better, I finally get a few minutes to myself today and I accidentally deleted  ALL of my files on Mediafire...yep...couldn't believe it. So...if you try to download any of my textures and it doesn't work...just go to my textures page and download it from there, I have finished fixing all the links on that page but not all on my daily posts. Just great huh? And do you think Mediafire has a recycle bin to retrieve these accidentally deleted files? I couldn't find one. Doesn't mean it doesn't exist, I just could not locate one. So I have spent the better part of my day trying to fix links, fun, fun, fun.

I'm really not a bitchy person at all...this is just my rant...I needed to get it all out. I am a lucky girl, with a great kid, a hot boyfriend, 6 of the cutest cats you could ever see, dogs that I adore, 18 goldfish that have slowly wiggled their way into my heart and a new wooly bear caterpillar that I can't stop looking at and my boss is pretty ok too. But like most moms, I get tired, worn out and begin to think about how these people and animals could possibly function in a world without me.

The good news is that I have new textures for you Yeah! It's been a little while I know, I have been a little busy. LOL These new textures are large files, 3888 x 2587, they are made from real photographs and processed in CS3. As always they are FREE for you to download and use as you wish. No need to credit me just don't claim them as your own and it's all good. Hope you like them...enjoy!

Download Blue Textures Set 1 Here

Download Blue Textures Set 1 Here

He Rescues Me

Every single day . . . .

Model is Mikey….My Rescuer.

In the Kindergarten hall

She started school this morning,
And she seemed so very small.
As I walked there beside her
In the Kindergarten hall.

And as she took her place beside
the others in the class,
I realized how all too soon
Those first few years can pass.

Remembering, I saw her as
She first learned how to walk.
The words that we alone made out
When she began to talk.

This little girl so much absorbed
In learning how to write.
It seems as though she must have grown
To girlhood overnight.

My eyes were blurred by hastily
I brushed the tears away
Lest by some word or sign of mine
I mar her first big day.

Oh how I longed to stay with her
And keep her by the hand
To lead her through the places
That she couldn’t understand.

And something closely kin to fear
Was mingled with my pride.
I knew she would no longer be
A baby by my side.

But she must have her chance to live,
To work her problems out,
The privilege to grow and learn
What life is all about.

And I must share my little girl
With friends and work and play;
She’s not a baby anymore —

She’s in Kindergarten today.

Model is Haley and she is in Kindergarten now.

Photo of the day: Lend Me a Kitten

I was excited to wake up this morning and see my Mikey featured as 'Photo of the Day' on MyShutterspace.com

I just joined the site recently and have found it to be rather enjoyable, the people there are so friendly, and very talented.


Here is the full version of Lend me a Kitten....

I will lend to you for awhile a kitten, God said.

For you to love while he lives, and mourn when he’s dead.

Maybe for twelve or fourteen years, or maybe two or three.

But will you, ’till I call him back, take care of him for me?

He’ll bring his charms to gladden you and should his stay be brief

You’ll always have his memories as solace for your grief.

I cannot promise he will stay, since all from earth return.

But there are lessons taught below I want this kitten to learn.

I’ve looked the whole world over in search of teachers true.
And from the folk that crowds life’s land I have chosen you.
Now will you give him all your love, nor think the labor vain?
Nor hate me when I come to take my kitten home again?

I fancied that I heard them say ‘Dear Lord Thy Will Be Done’
For all the joys this kitten brings the risk of grief we’ll run.
We’ll shelter him with tenderness, we’ll love him while we may.
And for the happiness we’ve known, forever grateful stay.

But should you call him back much sooner than we planned,
We’ll brave the bitter grief that comes, and try to understand.
If, by our love we’ve managed your wishes to achieve,
Then in memory of him whom we loved,
please help us while we grieve.
When our cherished kitten departs this world of strife,
Please send yet another needing soul for us to love all his life.

Author Unknown

Model is Mikey

Free Bokeh Textures

Here are few more textures to make your Monday a happy one!
My Bokeh Textures are Free to download and use as you wish, there is no need to credit me,
just don't claim them as your own....please.
My Textures are made from real photographs and then processed in Photoshop CS3.
Each set contains two large textures 3888 x 2592.

Download Set One Here

Download Set Two Here

Download Set Three Here

Download Set Four Here

Free Sets of Color Grunge Textures

Happy Friday! Here are some free textures to start your weekend off Right. :)

My Color Grunge Textures are created from real photographs and then processed in Photoshop CS3.
As always, they are free for you to download and use as you wish, there is no need to credit me, just don't claim them as your own.
Each set contains two textures 3888 x 2592

Enjoy!

Download Color Grunge Textures Set One Here

Download Color Grunge Textures  Set Two Here

Download Color Grunge Textures Set Three Here

Download Color Grunge Textures Set Four Here

Download Color Grunge Textures Set Five Here

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